Another move is complete. Yep, I have moved for the second time in seven months. Yikes! It is an expensive process and a lot of work. I have downsized from a two-bedroom condo to a large one-bedroom apartment. My new home is a much better fit for me than the last. Once again, I can sit on my deck and breathe in the morning air, listen to the serenade of nature’s sounds and gaze at the blue sky alight with the morning sun. It is a sanctuary of peace but not necessarily of rest. There will be no rest with a new jigsaw puzzle awaiting my attention. Ahhh, I am home.
The same overwhelming feeling of chaos occurs when I move into a new home. When boxes are strewn around, and furniture is misplaced, I am engulfed with feelings of anxiousness and disorder. During this past move, my daughter suggested to relax and take a break. She said, “mom not all of the boxes need to be unpacked at once.” Honestly, I tried to chill however during the time of supposed rest, my brain continued to unpack the boxes surrounding me. For me, rest and peace came slowly with each opened and emptied box.
Not surprising, this same analogy holds true in my ministry at the church. From the start, the vision for my new role as Senior Project Coordinator was vague and abstract. I seriously don’t do well with those two words. One of the interviewers asked me how I would handle a vision that wasn’t clearly defined yet and what steps were needed to bring the vision to life for the church. As I nervously sat thinking about my response, it occurred to me there was only one way to answer - a step at a time. Just like a jigsaw puzzle, the way to bring order to the vision would require identifying the boundaries, then slowly connect the edges, and add the blues, yellows, reds.... to bring order to chaos. Now with the passing months, the vision is taking shape and becoming a reality.
Bringing order to chaos is as old as time or at least as old as the beginning of the biblical creation story found in Genesis. It begins with, “In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth, that was formless and void of any structure and God’s Spirit hovered over the waters...” (Gen 1: 1-2a). Slowly God started to separate the pieces and placed borders between the earth and sky- land and water – sun and moon or night and day. Then God began to fill in the colors of blue, red, green and yellow... Once that was finished, living creatures of all sizes and shapes began to evolve. When the order was complete, “God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day. Thus, the heavens and the earth were completed in their vast array. By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work.” (Genesis 1:31-2:2). Did you read that? God said that the ordered chaos was very good. That is the same feeling I get when I complete a puzzle or empty moving boxes or work through the vision of the position at church. It is very good. Maybe that is one of life’s lessons. There have been times of stability when everything looked and felt peaceful. However many other times chaos threatened to overtake me. But slowly, I began to identify the boundaries or expectations, connect the edges, framing some stability, followed by filling my life with the colors of friends, family and relinquishing the chaos to my faith in God’s grace and blessing. Will chaos happen again? You can count on it! But so will order, a piece at a time.