Sitting on my deck with coffee in hand thinking, praying, dreaming, visioning… Asking God tough questions… What’s next? In what direction do you want me to serve? Ssshhh Listen to the sounds around you that I created for your pleasure... The birds singing their morning greeting… Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. But God… These are important questions about life. How can I better serve the kingdom? I don’t want to miss your voice… Sssshhh.. See the beauty of the water that rests on the horizon... See the trees in all of their splendor... And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. |
But God…
The voices that push me to use my gifts are many... They see my untapped potential and want to help me vision what could be... What should I do?
Hush..
Quiet your mind and anxiousness... Just as I AM in all that surrounds you, I am in you... with you.. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord, you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.
But God…
I can’t sit too long and my mind wanders and thoughts come rushing in... How do I know what you want me to do?
Ssshh…
Breathe…My Spirit is as close as the air you breathe.. The Spirit of God has made me,
and the breath of the Almighty gives me life.
But God..
How do I help the voiceless find their voice? How do I help them to identify the hurts inside of them and help them feel your love and grace?
My dear child…
Open YOUR heart to trust me.. Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
But God…
Trust makes me vulnerable. Trusting people can be painful when it leads to betrayal. Do you understand God? The betrayal?
YES…
Betrayal and vulnerability led me to the cross. My pain was real…“Judas, would you betray the Son of Man with a kiss?”
But God…
How did you overcome the hurt and pain? How did you learn to trust others and above all yourself?
Forgive…
Forgiveness is not about others… It is about you…
“Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times? “Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.”
Are you saying God…
There are times of doing and times for being still? There are times for rest?
Rest...
When you rest, you can feel my presence…
“Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.”
Are you saying God…
That I can be at peace? In that peace, I can rest in your presence and know you are in the midst of my struggle to know your will and your way?
I love you…
I have loved you before you were born… I love you now... and I love you forever… I AM with you always… Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Thank you God…